how do you make oneself happy, for longer durations of time?

i don’t feel whole. but i’m not sure what i’m missing. but then, i think i know.

i’m excited to go to church this week, i always am. i mean, i’m not trying to be a religious zealot—but it feels so good to know there’s someone who always cares about you, and you don’t have to worry about ever not being loved by them. And to love them back. NOT like that, i mean it’s God. He can do anything, it’s amazing.

i know i’m doing something wrong. how do i fix it? i don’t even know what it is.

i want to be less selfish